Back To December

It seems like it was only last month that I finished high school. Finishing high schools gives us more freedom to express our true selves through our appearances. Going to college opens up a new chapter in my life. Even then, some things just cannot change, and will not change. Forever.



I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while...
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why...
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burning in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die...

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you
Saying I'm sorry for that night...
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call...
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall...
And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye...

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you
Saying I'm sorry for that night...
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine...
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you
Saying I'm sorry for that night...
And I go back to December...

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

All the time...